Saturday, December 12, 2009

I can't find it!

I NEED to find it. I can't find it. Where is it? I have to have it!  I know its there, why can't I find it?

I need to find the verse in the Bible about temptation. How God has promised to always give ME a way OUT of it. I look and I look. I refer to my "index to key bible doctrines' in the back of my Bible...nothing. I look in the Concordance...nothing. I HAVE TO FIND IT!

Where is my book...I NEED my book. I need my book that tells me where everything is. Why can I not find my book? The book? Where to find it in the Bible The ultimate A to Z resource. BUT where is it. It is 1 am why can't I find my book? 

It is not by my computer with my bible. Fractically looking, I have to find my book! I need to find that verse!

It is NOT in any of my dresser drawers...I know because I went downstairs, turning on all the lights along the way. With no regard to all the sleeping bodies in the house. I go to the game cupboard that also has housed this book once before, but I know I have moved it from there already..but I look to no avial. I go to my bedroom I turn on the light, ya the big bright one, while Lindsey lay asleep in the bed. I open and close every drawer not caring how much noise I make and dig. Dig like my life depends on it, because right now it does. Where is it?

Now feeling courteous enough to turn off the lights as I retreat to upstairs still frantic to find that book. I turn on the light in the kids room as I am thinking, "it must be in their closet. There are books on the shelfs in their closest that belong to me. It HAS to be there."  Nope. Where is my book?!? I MUST find this verse.

My craft desk...yes it has to be in my craft desk. It used to be there too. It must be there. Open every drawer, twice, and look and dig. Nope. Where is my book?!? I MUST find this verse!

The book shelf by the fridge...ya, ya it HAS to be there. I just moved some books there a few weeks ago and organized it. I must have put it there. Nope. Where is my book?!? I must find this verse!

Could it be, did I leave it on the bookshelves that hold up my computer table? Lets see Playstation 2 Barbie horse adventure game, Nope.  The complete Herbal handbook for Farm and Stable, Nope. Just Give Me a Little Piece of quiet, 60 mini retreats for a mom's soul,  Nope. Homeschooling with a Meek and Quiet Spirit, Nope. Goat: Homoepathic Remedies, Nope.  Where is my book?!? I must find this verse!

Hey, what is that on the floor behind the shelf? A book! Is it THEE book? YES was at my feet the whole time.  Kind of fitting. It was where Jesus wants me, at his feet.

So the verse I needed to find. First I turn to "Temptation" in my where to find it book...

First I  turn to Genesis 4:7 "If you do well, will not your countenance be lifted up? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it."  hmmm good stuff but not the verse I am looking for.

Then in Genesis 39:6-10 I am reminded of how Joseph resists the temptation to lay down with his masters wife and what comes of that. Still good stuff, but not the verse.

Now I turn to Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble." Wonderful, just wonderful. Still not what I am looking for.

My book then points me to Proverbs 2:10-12, 16 "For wisdom will enter your heart and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul; Discretion will guard you, Understanding will watch over you, To deliver you from the way of evil, from the man who speaks perverse things;" "To deliver you from the strange woman, From the adulteress who flatters with her words;" still GREAT and powerful things..but where is THEE verse I WANT?

Proverbs 6:27-29 "Can a man take fire in his bosom and his clothes not be burned? Or can a man walk on hot coals and his feet not be scorched? So is the one who goes in to his neighbors wife; Whoever touches her will not go unpunished." WOW now that is harsh..but necessary none the less. Yet, still not THEE verse.

The temptation of Jesus Mathew 4:1-11...good reminder I am not alone in being tempted. Still not the thee verse.

I dont think any of these verses listed under "temptation" are going to be it... I will consult  again...why when sitting AT my computer with the whole world at my fingertips do I do things the hard way. The answers are at my "feet".  

AHH HAA found it! And it was one of the verses listed under "temptation" in the coveted book I sought so hard to find tonight. I just had not looked that one up yet!

I Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has over taken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it."

I have been praying for God to clearly mark my way out! To provide my escape route. I pray and pray for it.

He shows me time and time again a way out and back to the truth and I turn away from His escape. The headache that should have me in bed, the song that plays in my head reminding of God's love, good friends that care for me, a ringing phone, a screaming kid.... the list goes on. Wether I am physically being tempted or in a bad situation or it is my thought life I need to bring under the control of God... HE is faithful in providing a way out... I need to be faithful in TAKING the way out.

1 comment:

  1. I pray that you don't wait to long and that God does not punish you for not taking all the ways out he is providing and that your are not choosing to take.

    I love you and worry about you very much. Whatever it is that is going on, it's eating you up.... No one can help or support you until you choose that for yourself.